*sigh* Autumn holidays Finallyyy.
Last week was so chaotic, I had about 10 big tests which are really important for my exams next year.
I never found learning really hard (i'm a smartass hehe), but these tests were a lot bigger and I had some trouble concentrating. But I think it turned out all right, I messed up Maths and German a bit but with a little luck those grades may turn out positive.
This Friday the holidays started with a loud bang (literally) because I went to Green Day in Ahoy (Rotterdam) with my bro It's my second time seeing them and even though they're not a band I listen to often I still enjoyed the show. It's kinda funny though how Billie Joe keeps shouting that he's against commercialism and materialism while he shoots (with a gun, yeah) t-shirts into the crowd xD The fireworks caused me to go temporarily deaf though xD Now it's less than a month untill I'm going to see Muse, also in Ahoy

I haven't got anything planned this week (except for the usual mail delivery, I quitted my job at the Blokker, btw) and while I regretted it at first I'm kinda happy with that now. I've got some real time to think, draw, play the guitar and write songs. I started a drawing of two (maybe three) wolves today, it's taking a lot of time because I'm using water colour pencils, normal colouring pencils, soft crayons and pens. I've also thought about getting a new haircut, I might paint my hair red or dark brown or something.
I've downloaded information about a Music Knowledge college, which is practicly the only college I might be interested in at the moment. I really want to study and learn more, but I'm afraid I'll get bored within 6 months regardless of which study I'll choose. This Music Knowledge sounds really interesting though. There's a subject you're able to choose in the second year about jazz and popmusic from all over the world and it got me really excited just reading about it. And I think it's possible to study in Italy aswell!
I can't wait for 'the student life'. I know there isn't such a thing, but I feel like so far I've been holding back all the enthousiastic urges and needs to party and to just let myself go. Partying probably won't get me anywhere, but I feel like it's such a neglected side of my playful personality. Wow, that sounded like I know perfectly who I am XD. I'm Anne, and that's all I know really! Anyway, I've also thought about my friends, who really mean a lot to me, and I really need to stop using them to make me feel better or something xD That sounds worse than it probably is, but I usually when I feel like shit I can't seem to figure out things on my own I'm really depending on them, and even while they're doing what they can I still get pissed at them. I also need encouragement whenever I like something, they need to like it, too. And why? I have no fucking idea. I'm really tired of that, I enjoy being with them, now I just need to enjoy being with myself, alone. Sounds weird, but it seems like it's the solution to almost everything that bothers me. Now I just need to work this out in 'real life', it all seems great when I type it down.. but yeah, I'm possibly on the right path already. I've been feeling less frustrated with my friends and I also feel less frustrated with myself, which makes me even less frustrated with my friends, which makes me appreciate them even more than before
Life is awesome. If you've got some important things figured out. I feel like SUCH a standard teen with SUCH standard problems. But guess what, I'm fine with it.