Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to another overdramatic-introspective-overly-confusing-are you-sure-you-still-wanna-read-this-journal. (It actually isn't that bad this time).

There's people who just do stuff and are happy with that. Then there's people who overthink everything and always find something wrong with their lives.
I'm not even going to tell you which category I'm in.

Maybe I'll be able to change. Maybe. I'm going to give it all I've got anyways because that's all I can do.

But first, I've got some happy news. I'm going on a trip through Scotland and England with one of my best friends, Pascalle. We used to go to the same school, and it actually was after she left (I still had one year to go) that we started to hang out and talk about a lot of stuff. Right now we've got most of our trip planned and I can't wait to go, even though we're going next summer. This trip is gonna take 2 weeks and will be longest holiday I've ever been on.
I actually made a map to show you where we're going: [link]
So, as you can see, we'll be arriving by boat in Newcastle (coming from IJmuiden, the Netherlands). After that we'll drive straight to Scotland, visit Edinburgh and book a camping or B&B near the city. We'll probably stay there for 1 night and then move up to Kingussie, a beautiful town with a really beautiful B&B (Pascalle has stayed there before). Then we'll go to the Isle of Mull and probably go on a nice boattrip to spot whales and other nice wildlife. After that we'll visit the immensely beautiful  Loch Lomond, where we'll be camping. As we've both never camped before that's gonna be quite a challenge but I still can't wait to visit that area and go on some great hikes. After Loch Lomond we'll drive down to England, to The Lake District, another great area. Then we'll visit the Yorkshire Dales and drive further down to the Welsch borders (we're not entirely sure where we'll be staying yet). By that time our journey's almost come to on end, so we'll take a long drive to the east coast, to Harwich where we'll go on a boat back to the Netherlands (Hoek Van Holland, to be precise).
I seriously can't wait to see all the different landscapes, enjoy the nature and wildlife we're going to see, meet all these wonderful people (who I'll hopefully be able to understand with their heavy accents) and go on long rides through the mountains of Scotland and Northern England (if I'll be able to get my driver's license in time >_<). I also would've liked visiting the southwest coast, but we couldn't plan that into 2 weeks so I guess I'll have to go back sometime! Haha seriously I can't wait, I haven't even been on that trip yet and I'm already thinking about going back. But seriously, you never know, I might move to England some day. I've always felt so comfortable with the language, accents, the people and the music. Though it was also a really strange experience to be spoken to in Norwegian everywhere I went in Norway 0_0 It almost seemed like I 'belonged' there. Still, the nature's too radically different for me I guess. I had a lot of trouble getting used to seeing mountains everywhere as my fav landscape is like an open field with a couple of trees. Even though those mountains were absolutely beautiful. I don't think I've actually said anything on dA about my trip to Norway but really.. it was amazing. I'll upload some pictures today. I do regret not meeting up with ~Khanran though, but in the end I got so nervous that I just didn't want to make another commitment as I felt like dying of nerves already (i also got really sick right before leaving because of that). Meeting people wasn't hard or scary at all in the end so I think we would've been fine but yeah.. can't turn back time and there's still time to meet up someday!

This journal's so long already but one last thing: I'm quitting my study. I might get my Propaedeutics (finish all the subjects of the first year of my study) before quitting though. That would mean I'd still have to be studying until June though. If I decide to quit as soon as possible, I'll probably look for another part time job I can do. After that I might go on a big trip, but seriously I haven't really got a clue what to do. I just don't feel motivated enough to finish any kind of study atm. Some people say it's stupid to quit my study and I'll have to pay an extra fine of 3000 euros when I do so. But I just don't want to see it as something problematic (even though I can't help doing that at times), because for me I think it will keep every opportunity open to do whatever I want and find out who I am. There's so much to do and see on this planet and I wanna enjoy it as much as I can. Material things don't mean anything to me, experiences however, mean the world to me.